Friday, April 10, 2009

How Did This HodgePodge Become...

So after a few months of friends saying I need a blog, I've finally decided to do so. Many say I would just enjoy it. But one of these sweet as a cupcake people said this could be a my therapy for me. A sort of cleansing for my soul. I am a self aware person and realize I bottle a lot of crazy up for way too long of a time. So a new way of life devoted to pouring my heart out could be...interesting 

Recently my poetry class has been discussing the oxymorons within ourselves. Between that and the push from people to get my thoughts out into this world wide craziness, I can't stop selfishly pondering that with all the oxymorons that I harness how the hell the hodgepodge of myself was created.  

I combine attributes that next to each other in a line at the bank give each other dirty looks and silent giggles. How did it come to be that I am what I am. Yearning to learn how to knit and know what it's like to free dive with a Great White shark. Rock every wii sport, but could never master a real one. Can handle intense pain, but every time I get my haircut and they brush my hair a part of me wants to cry. I try to eat organic food and care about the environment, but i smoke, drink, fuck anyone and forget to recycle a lot. Feel more uncomfortable watching a love story than a porn. Am a completely boring person, but if you read my mind you'd think I was completely insane. The list could go on...

But everyone has oxymorons in them. Some more than others. I like to think I'm a good mix of crazy boring. None of these are too extreme, but the path to self analyzing starts with wishing they were and realizing they're not at all.